Hello, I'm Stevie Lang! My perfectionism stemmed from being raised in a strict, highly conservative religion that constantly told me I wasn’t good enough. The group kept control over its people with guilt, shame and fear, shunning anyone who deviated from the defined structure. They encouraged members to follow an extensive list of rules to feel worthy of God’s approval.
I never felt like I belonged there. Even as a small child, I wanted to give God a hug and speak from the podium like men did. It didn’t make sense to me that I couldn’t just because I was a girl and that got me into a lot of trouble. What I sensed from the energy of people around me didn’t match their words. They said they were happy and loving but I felt fear and judgment. I wanted to EVERYONE to love, really love, and be HAPPY!!!
I tried to fit in. I tried VERY HARD but I reached a breaking point in my mid 20s. I had a special needs child, an emotionally stunted, alcoholic husband, and an unmanageable mess in the house from both of them. I was worn out, overweight, depressed and suicidal. I felt there was something inherently wrong with me.
One life changing day, I prayed to God with tears running down my face “I have really messed up. I just wanted to be happy and have sex while being good but it didn’t work. I can’t do this anymore. Please help me die or help me change.” In that moment, a rush came over me from the top of my head down to my toes. My little boy crawled over, pulled himself up to stand with my knees and tilted his head at me as if to say “What’s wrong? I need you, mama.” In that moment, I decided I had to change my life, no matter how hard it was, and I started on the path to recovery.
Over 20 years have passed since then. It’s been an ever evolving journey of self discovery. I have tried living with different belief systems, worked steps, saw therapists, hired coaches, learned about trauma and triggers, hired a trainer, changed my relationship with food and lost weight, ran marathons, practiced yoga, changed careers several times, started meditating, practiced Reiki, experimented with plant medicines and different kinds of partners. You could say I am an experiential learner… How about you?
My greatest wish is for everyone to experience FREEDOM to live the life they WANT! I want LOVE and BLISS for EVERYBODY!!! I believe we change the world by changing ourselves and sometimes we need a little help along the way. I have talents, training and life experience to assist many different kinds of life transitions: raising special needs children into adulthood, career change, moving, divorce, retirement, empty nesting and caring for aging parents. I have practical tools to help clients thrive with anxiety, depression and neuro divergence.
If you feel like there is more to life than how you have been living and just want to feel comfortable in your own skin, I get it! Let’s connect with your inner knowing so you can turn your self doubt and insecurity into confidence and clarity! You are worth loving because you exist!